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Alcoholics Anonymous | Jan 8 2015 | DonInLondon | Step 1 “Freedom”

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January 8 2014 [ Full daily blog: http://donoddylondon.blogspot.co.uk/2014/01/alcoholics-anonymous-jan-8-2004-2014.html ] | AA 12 Steps In Action | Step 1 “Powerless” | Alcoholics Anonymous 2013 What was a weakness is now a strength, no need to feel powerful with a drink inside me, no need to imagine future success. One day at a time, finding the measure of success in emotional and spiritual living. Emotional, knowing my feelings, spiritual, in the moment of now. It does not mean I will always be coping with what is going on, the strength is in asking for help when needed from anyone anywhere at any time, including most importantly our good conscience…

We all have a conscience, and depending on how we have learned life, our conscience will drive us to do what is good, what is seen as bad and what is seen as ugly. We may not like the consequences of our actions, and so often we don’t even think about the consequences of what we do under the influence of something, we just want to do it. Like an ad campaign, which suggests: “just do it!” If we just do things because we are driven to do them, without applying some common sense and gumption, the world would be in more chaos than it is and nobody would ever find any serenity in anything…

Under the deception of teaching me something useful, my father showed me how to make homebrew at a very early age by throwing rhubarb and sugar into a bucket with water, put it in a dark cupboard and waiting for it to ferment into a very rough wine. To improve its flavour, throw in a few raisins, and a few weeks later a very rough liquor to be ingested and cause a new experience in my head. Giddy and carefree, for a little while and then a headache, and then a desire for more giddiness and more carefree feelings and a complete withdrawal from reality. Great moments of release from reality. I guess back then reality was not that good, and my look back with a sober head, reality was pretty awful, no wonder I was in the thrall of home brewing from an early age…

All sorts of neat tricks to make alcohol from anything, beekeeping became a fun activity in itself, producing honey, and then producing mead, and getting a pat on the back for my enterprise from my dad. He seemed to enjoy any sort of alcohol, and any sort of medication which might produce a different way of feeling. In hindsight I feel he’d probably used us children as guinea pigs, or a way of endorsing his natural inclination to find substances which took away reality as soon as possible. Generally, my dad was very angry about the world and he had good reason to be angry. And his way of dealing with reality was to get out of it as soon as possible on a daily basis. I think we used to call it, taking the edge off, and I joined in enthusiastically as much as I could, because I thought that’s what people did…

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DonInLondon [ Full daily blog: http://oddbook.co ]
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January 2013 | Step One Reading Video Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZEA67loEnw
January 2013 | Video Reading How It Works: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Rj3wPVvk3Q
January 2013 | Video Reading A Vision For You: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8B5pqwGXgU
January 2013 | Playlist About Step One: http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLFF27FC43CF7CF17C
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Comments

  1. rarabongostar03 says

    February 11, 2013 at 10:05 pm

    peace n love DONI thanx for helping others xxx

  2. Don DonInLondon says

    February 15, 2013 at 4:59 am

    thank you and same to you too, :)

  3. Don DonInLondon says

    January 8, 2014 at 5:54 am

    Alcoholics Anonymous Blog & Video | Jan 8 2004 – 2014 | DonInLondon | Step
    1 “Powerless” |
    January Step One Month: “We admitted we were powerless over alcohol – that
    our lives had become unmanageable.” Twelve steps all about emotional and
    spiritual growth, or decay depending on where we are headed. Who cares to
    admit complete defeat? The very last thing I ever wanted to do in my life,
    all my working life would be to admit defeat. I could always see a way out,
    a new way to work and to live. Alcohol did defeat me and I needed to
    surrender to the truth of my situation. Truth love and wisdom in the moment
    of now for me is God. God is truth, God is love and the wisdom learned in
    the moment of now. I don’t have the truth until I share and check out and
    listen to the truth of others, and between me and you we will get to the
    truth eventually, of course it is still a limited truth. And as the day
    progresses, working with ourselves and other people, truth develops and
    expands. Sometimes we like the truth, sometimes we dislike the truth
    intensely, usually when the common good is understood, as self-interest is
    exposed for what it is.
    January 8 Video
    Alcoholics Anonymous Jan 8 2014 DonInLondon | Step 1 “Powerless” |

    Step One Video 12 & 12
    Alcoholics Anonymous | Step 1 Reading 12 & 12 | DonInLondon

    DonInLondon January 8, 2014: I was struck yesterday just how easy it is to
    put off a newcomer if we are debating the existence of our own particular
    higher power. It will take a lifetime to debate the nature of God with our
    limited experience of God. So whatever we come to understand God to be,
    hopefully we don’t inflict our own beliefs on others. And yet reading from
    the big book, it can lead anyone anywhere to feel “less than” those who
    have a firm understanding of God in their lives. I find this very
    disagreeable, because although the question of God is a part of my life, my
    understanding of God is very limited. I surrender to the truth love and
    wisdom of life on life’s terms, the truth as it manifests, love at it
    manifests and the wisdom learned each and every day. I would not wish to
    proselytise and inflict my own beliefs and opinions on another person with
    regard to God. Surrendering to the truth, love and wisdom of now and in
    every moment helps me immensely with this conundrum.

    God willing: which for me is the truth love and wisdom in the moment of
    now, I hope to have a sober day. And the notion of a higher power than me?
    Just about everything can be a higher power than me, especially people who
    can speak the truth, no how to love and keep on learning the wisdom right
    here right now. This may be a very uncomfortable understanding of a higher
    power, because the higher power is not necessarily on my side of this
    particular moment, the higher power of truth love and wisdom, is what I
    learn interacting with every human being I meet. The devil is in the
    detail: what I feel and think, isolated it is just my experience which can
    be very prejudiced by life events. In other words, the higher power is to
    the common good, the devil in the detail is my self-interest, opinions and
    beliefs which may be worldly, but woefully lacking without the help of
    others.

    Step one: I am happy to be powerless over alcohol, because when I surrender
    to this truth, I can ask for help which comes in abundance from many
    sources, at the same time the primary source of understanding and love
    comes through Fellowship, where people know what it is like to try get
    sober one day at a time. I am also happy to be powerless over people,
    places and things. And this means through interaction and agreement I can
    live in the company of people, in particular places with the things I might
    need. With my needs met, hopefully extreme wants and desires subside and I
    find where normal living is preferable, fun, joyful, happy and the opposite
    as well because life is like that, good bad and ugly. And I can cope, and
    when I cannot cope I ask for help. Even when coping, interacting with other
    people is the very best it can be from moment to moment. Acceptance of
    powerlessness is surrendering to the truth, love and wisdom in the moment,
    where higher power works through people.

    In the past, the pursuit of happiness led to extreme behaviour in me.
    Popular myths about being able to drink other people under the table, well
    that started when I was very very young. As life went on, and the culture
    of the age, some might call it the Zeitgeist, the spirit of the age was to
    work hard and play hard. And with those givens or understandings, to
    indulge in working as hard as possible, playing as hard as possible did
    lead to extreme behaviour, which in the eyes of many was all about success
    in career and private life. So driven, it is very hard to break those
    patterns after thirty-five years of work and play. Unless of course we
    breakdown in some way. Many people don’t go all the way to rock bottom and
    the extremes available, and for that I have immense and great gratitude,
    because Fellowship is open to people of all ages and backgrounds, culture,
    politics, religion, you name it, we find it in Fellowship. And this is the
    greatest gift to improve our truth, to improve our love and develop our
    wisdom of living with each other day by day.

    The welcome we receive in Fellowship is as good as it gets on the day we
    arrive. And the welcome we receive is contingent on the current conditions
    of the day, sometimes the current conditions of the day, even though they
    are the best they can be, might be very attractive as an experience, or
    driven by the opinions and beliefs of one person who extends a hand of
    friendship to another. And some people in Fellowship, including me, can be
    very limited in our approach to newcomers if we forget the basics of unity
    service and recovery and not impose our own personal beliefs on other
    people. I know for a long time that I felt awkward about my beliefs, my
    personal beliefs and opinions, which were out of tune with some of the
    rhetoric that is thrown about without thought and without consideration of
    what it is to be a newcomer to recovery.

    Self-prejudice which is a part of recovery, can lead to harsh conclusions,
    shortcuts in explanations of the road ahead. And I am reminded of many of
    the old timers who helped me in my early days just said, “whatever happens
    to you, sober, relapse, madness, being restored to sanity for a little
    while, and then more stuff to sort out, whatever happens just keep coming
    back.” And keeping the door open to newcomers, no matter what happens, it
    will be the many voices in the Fellowship sharing their experience strength
    and hope which will help any newcomer understand their own life story. It
    is the many, the Fellowship which helps restore us all to living a better
    life together and a better life in society on a daily basis. There is no
    graduation and no exam, simply living to the best we can be one day at a
    time.

    DonInLondon 2013 – 2005

    January 8 2013 | AA 12 Steps In Action | Step 1 “Powerless” | Alcoholics
    Anonymous What was a weakness is now a strength, no need to feel powerful
    with a drink inside me, no need to imagine future success. One day at a
    time, finding the measure of success in emotional and spiritual living.
    Emotional, knowing my feelings, spiritual, in the moment of now. It does
    not mean I will always be coping with what is going on, the strength is in
    asking for help when needed from anyone anywhere at any time, including
    most importantly our good conscience…

    We all have a conscience, and depending on how we have learned life, our
    conscience will drive us to do what is good, what is seen as bad and what
    is seen as ugly. We may not like the consequences of our actions, and so
    often we don’t even think about the consequences of what we do under the
    influence of something, we just want to do it. Like an ad campaign, which
    suggests: “just do it!” If we just do things because we are driven to do
    them, without applying some common sense and gumption, the world would be
    in more chaos than it is and nobody would ever find any serenity in
    anything…

    Under the deception of teaching me something useful, my father showed me
    how to make homebrew at a very early age by throwing rhubarb and sugar into
    a bucket with water, put it in a dark cupboard and waiting for it to
    ferment into a very rough wine. To improve its flavour, throw in a few
    raisins, and a few weeks later a very rough liquor to be ingested and cause
    a new experience in my head. Giddy and carefree, for a little while and
    then a headache, and then a desire for more giddiness and more carefree
    feelings and a complete withdrawal from reality. Great moments of release
    from reality. I guess back then reality was not that good, and my look back
    with a sober head, reality was pretty awful, no wonder I was in the thrall
    of home brewing from an early age…
    All sorts of neat tricks to make alcohol from anything, beekeeping became a
    fun activity in itself, producing honey, and then producing mead, and
    getting a pat on the back for my enterprise from my dad. He seemed to enjoy
    any sort of alcohol, and any sort of medication which might produce a
    different way of feeling. In hindsight I feel he’d probably used us
    children as guinea pigs, or a way of endorsing his natural inclination to
    find substances which took away reality as soon as possible. Generally, my
    dad was very angry about the world and he had good reason to be angry. And
    his way of dealing with reality was to get out of it as soon as possible on
    a daily basis. I think we used to call it, taking the edge off, and I
    joined in enthusiastically as much as I could, because I thought that’s
    what people did…

    Taking the edge off reality, taking the edge off the good, the bad and the
    ugly, meant my perception of the world was probably at extremes most of the
    time. And one of the elements of recovery, which has been the most
    productive, is learning about feelings and how they impact on my thinking
    and the actions I take. Somebody said recently. Feelings are not truth, and
    I waver on agreeing. I know feelings are very real, they inform me of my
    spiritual condition right now. When my feelings do not match reality, that
    they are exaggerated in some way and stop me seeing the truth, although the
    feelings are real, I still need to find the truth of now. Feelings are the
    truth in the moment, and then finding reality is another matter in
    spiritual living, simply living in the reality of now…

    My dad died early because of drink and substance abuse. There is no doubt
    about it, and it is a wonder he lasted as long as he did. I feel he would
    have made better decisions about his own life had he not been pickled most
    of the time. He would have learned a better path with better choices based
    on better information. And the world was mad when he was growing up, and
    the world is still mad, as mad as hell about a lot of things. Depending on
    your nature, and learning how to cope with life, we can all be driven mad
    daily. The tools of the fellowship program, the fellowship of Alcoholics
    Anonymous, help me work out what I can do and cannot do on a daily basis.
    And to put the right value on my life, to live an emotional and spiritual
    experience, where my feelings fit with reality and I can cope, I cope
    mostly by including people and asking their opinions, and sharing outcomes
    through negotiation, rather than trying to impose my will and my ideas on
    anyone. We are all interdependent, and fellowship has taught me how to be
    equal, included and find unconditional love works for one day, one hour,
    one minute at a time. Imperfectly perfect in the ever present, present
    moment of now…

    Even when other people around us have a different set of rules, or rather,
    it simply ways of living life, we don’t have to join in with their way of
    living. If their way of living is unhelpful, bullying or simply a bad
    practice, we need not join in with them. Easy to say and very difficult to
    do. If we feel that we ought to be like them, we need to challenge our own
    outlook and our own behaviour. One of the things I know most often happens
    is that we think we can change another person’s attitude and behaviour, and
    especially how they feel about the world. I am powerless over people places
    and things, and when I remind myself that I can change my outlook, my
    choices and my destination, with due care and attention, I’d need not
    undermine other people and what they are about. We will encounter many
    people in fellowship with different ideas and beliefs, attitudes and
    outlooks, and just because they may be loud in their opinions, we do not
    have to join in with them. As individuals we decide our right choice in the
    moment of now, and often this is a difficult path, and the serenity prayer
    helps always in the can and cannot do and accepting the wisdom we learn one
    day at a time…

    I am going to make mistakes today, and if I break down the word mistake to
    miss and take it is like something which can be redone or completely
    rebuilt. If I can forgive my fall into alcoholism and all the consequences
    which led me astray and into a very small world inside my head, I need to
    be able to forgive everyone everything in the moment of now. Forgiving
    people does free me from trying to persuade people to my point of view,
    forgiving people frees me from bad feelings about them, and restores me to
    sanity faster than anything I know, forgiveness is a daily practice for
    oneself and for other people, at the same time, and actions have
    consequences. And some people we let go as they are harmful to our outlook
    and our way of life today…

    January 8 2012 | Daily Reflection|

    Yesterday; at the hut for our lunchtime spiritual meeting. We read the
    spiritual experience and then a five-minute chair and raised hands.
    Newcomers, and old timers new to our area. Chair about acceptance of who we
    are today. Feels like all the meetings recently have been about courage to
    change as life is changing. Acceptance; of the past so important and
    letting go. Opening the door to let go and let the world in, asking for
    help when it’s needed and helping others when they ask. No expectations, no
    resentments and a clear view to what might happen today…

    Today’s AA daily reflection is about “do I have a choice?” And my
    experience is we do have choices today. Sober and sobriety can smack of
    puritanism. But I didn’t get sober to be a puritan; I got sober so my
    natural instincts would work again. The good news is my natural instincts
    work again; even better news is I see when other people’s natural instincts
    are working well for them. And I also like the natural instincts of women
    to like men, or whatever combination floats your boat works as we live and
    breathe sober today…

    Do I have a choice today? I wake up in the morning, as myself how am I
    feeling? If I feel good I am likely to be thinking good and my actions will
    result in good things. If I feel angry waking up, my thinking is angry and
    my actions are likely to be angry as well. Whatever mood I wake up with, as
    long as I ask myself what it is, I can influence what happens and make
    choices. But if I wake up with a hangover and don’t think my actions may be
    to act out badly all day long…

    I didn’t get sober to be a puritan, I love being sober so I may enjoy every
    single aspect of nature and providence, that is my natural instincts and
    where life may take me today. Life is all about change, and the funny thing
    about acceptance is we accept what happened, and accept life is going to be
    changing forever. Most likely changes for the good when we know what can be
    done, like to do each and every day. Can do and cannot do and wisdom to
    know the difference today… Now how hard is that?

    DonInLondon 2005-2011

    Powerless over People Places Things ~ Henry David Thoreau “Nature puts no
    question and answers none which we mortals ask. She has long ago taken her
    resolution.”
    -/-

    Open honest and willing… freedom living in the moment of now

    Freedom ~ Thomas Jefferson “Our greatest happiness does not depend on the
    condition of life in which chance has placed us, but is always the result
    of a good conscience, good health, occupation, and freedom in all just
    pursuits.”
    -/-
    Powerless over People Places Things ~ Henry David Thoreau “Nature puts no
    question and answers none which we mortals ask. She has long ago taken her
    resolution.”
    -/-
    Open honest and willing… freedom living in the moment of now

    Inner Calm ~ “The greater the demands on us, the more we need to sustain
    our inner calm and stability.”
    /

    God Is Truth ~ God Works Through People ~ God Is Love ~ Listen To The Inner
    Voice, Listen To Others, Love In The Moment…

    What is the worst thing that can happen when there is a newcomer in one of
    our meetings?
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    AA Big Book Video | Chapter 4 | We Agnostics |
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