2014 Full Daily Blog: http://donoddylondon.blogspot.co.uk/2014/11/alcoholics-anonymous-blog-november-23.html November 23 2013 [ Full daily blog: http://donoddylondon.blogspot.co.uk/2013/11/alcoholics-anonymous-nov-23-doninlondon.html ] | AA 12 Steps In Action | Step 11 Daily Meditation Alcoholics Anonymous Today’s Daily Reflections 2012: “holding our face up to the light… Holding our face up to the truth…” I heard a recording of Gandhi from 1923: “God is truth, God is love…” Truth, love and wisdom shines when we able to utilise all our senses and experience the moment of now. All senses working, and asking myself: “how am I feeling? Now that I know what my feelings are, I realise how they impact on my thinking and actions: Feel good, think good, action likely to be good. Feel bad, think bad, actions are likely to be bad. Feel the ugliness, think ugly and actions can be ugly. Facing up to: the truth, the good the bad and the ugly. All in one day is enlightenment in the moment, the imperfectly perfect moment of now…
A meeting last night in Eaton square, at the back of Buckingham Palace. After eights: “a chair by someone sharing experience strength and hope of later sobriety.” They shared that enlightenment, holding our faces up to the light and the truth reveals that we are very human and very sensitive beings. We all live in the same day, some having good experiences, some having bad experiences in some having plain ugly experiences. And we share about all of them. If we are fortunate and truthful, we are enlightened in these moments. Last night, very real about recovery, that life offers every experience to every human being. And that we need to know our emotional and spiritual connection to now. Feelings working in the moment can be a real shock to the system…
Riding to the meeting on my electric bicycle: the wind starting to howl and the trees losing their leaves. No hat tonight or I would lose it. And so, a feeling of oneness with the elements. And the meeting, full of bright emotionally aware and deep thinking people. After the meeting, rather than go straight home, a ride to Buckingham Palace, and onward to Trafalgar square along the Mall, leaves falling and tumbling across the road and the wind and the rustling leaves skipping across the ground. The Lions and Nelson’s column, and up Charing Cross Road, to the hippodrome and Leicester square, and then onward to Piccadilly and Eros. Gusting winds, everyone huddling in groups. And then the rain came tumbling down. Down Piccadilly, riding past the Royal Academy and Fortnum and Mason’s, and on to the Ritz, and onto Green Park. Cars whistling past and the wind picking up felt hazardous and exhilarating all once. Around Hyde Park, where cars pushed to and fro and lorries and buses forged their path, and I follow them. And onward past Harvey Nichols, and then the spectacle of Harrods lit up for Christmas… And a shortcut, down to Walton Street, wind and rain pelting, men and women huddled under umbrellas outside bars smoking and laughing… Sloane Avenue and home, at peace with myself and the world. Excited by life and peaceful inside is a good end to the day…
How am I feeling this morning? Rattled! I thoroughly enjoyed the elements last night. Hugging the men in fellowship, and kisses on cheeks for the girls. I am reminded of times past and relationships and how much I cherish the memories of those times. I miss my soul mates from back then. And at the same time, I know most are happy where they are now. Life is an adventure, and learning to cherish those we have loved, those who have expired and those who we know are still around and not in my life is a necessary part of my recovery. Letting go, the hardest thing to let go and then, in acceptance, accepting the let go means there is room to grow, to cherish and be able to love all over again. After the heartbreak, and into the truth we find good, as life enlightens one day at a time…
Self-awareness? Yes, I do feel good this morning, my emotions are working, and I can cherish everything right now. I’m not superficial and indifferent, and can help if help is needed, and if I am asked, rather than impose anything on anyone, all I need do is share experience, strength and hope. And this is what we all do in fellowship today… Bright happy Clappy, or miserable and downtrodden and somewhere in between, we hear our story and relate in the moment of now… Who would’ve thought it? As a person being open, honest and willing to learn, and then a fellowship where we are together in unity, service and recovery… Now how cool is that..?
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